wierdly_serious

Hell

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 13:39:03 GMT

Okay, I guess it is my time to post, cause the printer broke at work, I can only print one thing at a time on the color printer and my boss is gone so I can't deliver things cause I have to wait for UPS, FedEx, and DHL.
I pretty much work, sleep, and eat. On weekends I do little (Yes Chevy, I know I hang with you, but usually we lounge around, do nothing, especially when we were both working.)
I am teaching someone to play Magic, I'm waiting to get some cards for a deck. I'm writing a new story, the third in the past two weeks. I've bougth a ton of books over the summer, especially to keep my sanity during class with that stupid bitch teacher.
I learned the wonders of internet shopping (it is usually cheaper too).
Chevy is leaving the 24th, the same day my mother is having surgeory (as of right now). I will miss her so....
Cameron (my Ex, for new comers)has been down here a couple times. I'm not sure to think about that still... It is weird.. after what I've been through with exs...
I dunno, everything is just kind of flowing in the world, and I'm just flowing with it. If I think of anything else more to write, I'll post.
See you all later, and Have Fun!
-Travie-
P.S. I'm still Single and loking *winks to anyone who can help me out*

Mirror Shield

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 02:31:57 GMT

Okay, as a update to my "Shield" Journal. I got home from School and the Squirrel was dead. I still felt like crying, but something compelled my to not cry. So I went out and got a shovel, grabbed the squirrel and took him to my "animal graveyard" I buried him and wished him luck on his next journey... I hope he is save and well.

Shield

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 20:48:59 GMT

So. Not a lot has been going on. Work, School, Friends, Burning Out, and new Games.... but I don't really care about all that right now.
See.. I realized, I hate myself more than I noticed. Not because of things I do.. well it is sorta dealing with things I do, but it is just.. My brain doesn't work the way I think it should and it pisses me off!
See. My granfather died about 3 weeks ago... and I didn't feel anything.. Okay, I worded that wrong but it was that I always feel the same way about death when it comes to people. Over the past 12 months my mother's uncle, granmother's brother-in-law, and granfather all died. When I heard they was the feeling of loss, but it doesn't last long in me. Then When I'm around people mourning the lost, I feel like I want to escape. I can't be around those mourning... I feel out of place, like I don't belong... I constantly have energy and making people laugh is easy for me, but death is something I don't deal with... correctly?
Though I figured that last statement is wrong. Cause today, while getting ready to leave for class. I heard a car squeeking oddly. I looked up to see a squirrel confused and frantically trying to get across the road, only to have the car hit it. I thought the squirrel was dead (which would have bothered me a little), but looking closer, it was limping (both its back legs, or maybe it was just its rear right leg). It climbed onto a log behind our mailbox and then disappeared into the brush. I got into the vehicle thinking it would be okay since it was walking away. Only to as I drive out, look in my rearview mirror and see its tail sticking out of the brush. I get back into the driveway, hop out and go check it.
I could have touched the thing (had it not me worrying about getting bitten and a disease) it didn't move as I got closer, so I ran to my vechile and grabbed some birdseed out of the bakc and went back and threw some seed near it. I then moved a conviently in the way branch before hopping back into my vehicle and leaving.

Now... You may think I wasj ust being kind to animals. But is it so sad that as I drove away down the road I started to cry for the little squirrel... I cna't cry when a realitive dies, but a squirrel gets injured and I'm ready to break down... Isn't that a little out of place. From then on (till now) I've been kinda distant and out of place/mind... But from the people I have seen they havn't really noticed. It doesn't matter too me I only know two people that if they saw me now would even question how I am feeling, hell I don't really care who notices, I just hate that I can't feel emotions correctly. Unless this is telling me that I truly hate people and animals are my true calling.

BODY

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 05:14:11 GMT

veryone! Its been a while.
But you know, life moves on.
Just making a short post to let everyone know how work is going and a little about whats been going on in my life.
Well, as for work. Its going great. I've worked three weeks, havn't been late once and actually wish I could work more hours.
(I never thought I would say that one)
Yep, I finally got to make my first set of delieveries around campus alone, took me 4 trips to get it all delivered, she wanted me to do more today, but the weather was shitty.
I was so chipper doing the deliveries I started to think I was someone else.. or was actually changing into someone else, but then I was just realizing I was having fun!
I got my first paycheck today though, It is so SWEET! At first I thought it was goign ot get directly deposited, but since it was my first it didn't. So I was to late to actually get it from the department, cause there is a time limit... but since the MAIL them out and I work in the MAILroom, I just found it in the stack and took it thre.
So yeah, tomorrow I'm gonna go deposit some it but keep a little for the weekend.
Oh, and dry paper and metal do not mix! *static sparks pass between my fingers*

Monday, I am going to dinner with my lovely Ashlie after class, that is pretty much all I know.. no details about anything else.

I'm still single *sigh* but I'm not gonna let it get to me. I've lived with it off and on for 22 years, I'm sure a few more days/weeks/months/years won't kill me.

As for life in general, it waves in and out of being really good dealings, then into overwhelming drama shit. It always based around the same people, and is getting kinda old.
I just wish the bad thing would go away and never return, but I know that won't happen. *sigh*

But with the help of a few secret resources and the write words, I'm going to be doing fine. Some of my friends are as well. I keep the close ones safe *wink*

Well, I just wanted to give y'all a short update.
<3
-Travie-

P.S. Chevy, remember to take a break from your game once and a while.
P.S.S. Trick, I'm there for you my Bradda.
P.S.S.S Ashie! I can't wait till Monday!
P.S.S.S.S. Tails, starting uhh. Tuesday/Wednesday (if you read this) start checking your mail!!!
P.S.S.S.S.S. Sanzo and Joejoe, be good you two!!!P.S.S.S.S.S.S. I don't know if you read this Hechie, BUT I LOVE YOU!!!!

Power!

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 01:01:19 GMT

Okay, so, time for an update. Hmm.. lets see.. nothing too important to talk about really. There is a nice guy on Myspace I like that lives in Lansing... He seems to be really sweet and charming, can't wait to see if it gets any farther than Online. (sorta hoping it does a bit).
But nothing much other than that, EXCEPT!
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TRAVIS GOT A JOB!!!!
Yep! I gots a job in Mail and Duplications at KCC! I start tomorrow at 8:00 in the morn... My biggest weakness is mornings, but I guess I'm gonna have to get over it.
So yeah, Travis can't wait to learn about the printers and Mail delivery system! I know I'm weird!
So, Have a nice week.
<3 Travie

New Year

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 21:28:30 GMT

All right everyone, so it is 2007! Woo...hoo?
So much happened in 2006, and I hope there arn't many repeats. As of right now, I don't really want to be around anyone, but that will leave me later in the evening, and if not then, probably tomorrow morning, but that is just me.
Though, I am making a New Years Resolution! To be more Positive!!!! No negativity.. well at least not a lot. Complaining once about something bad for maybe about 15 minutes to a half an half an hour is okay, but if I keep dwelling on the past I won't relaly get anywhere, that and I have a deep seeded Hatred for myself, though no one knows. But I'm gonna be lots more Positive... Oh, and there is a difference between happy and positive as well, for like I said. I have a deep seeded hatred for myself, even though I always look happy! So yeah. Well. so that is my new years resolution. I also hope to start dating someone and keep them for a while, I'm kinda sick of going out seeing nice looking guys I wanna date, and then get home and feel the lingering depression of not being with someone with so many nice looking people out there... but yeah. Dammit, I'm still being negative!! Or depressed... so many different words.
Well anywayz, I rambled long enough! I will talk with you all later!
<3 Travie <3

HAPPY!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 19:07:27 GMT

All right, everything has been going good! Well, a little stress and anger, that formed into a peace treaty. Well, Guess what everyone!! TODAY IS MY 22nd BIRTHDAY ON THE 22nd OF DECEMBER!!!!!! So yeah, I'm having a good day so far, some people are being rather bossy, my sister! But other than that Breakfast and lunch have been good.

Emotions

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 22:58:27 GMT

I AM SO PISSED AND STRESSSSED RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suckie

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 16:41:54 GMT

For those who wish to know, my computer at home has died. I'm taking it in today to see if they can fix it... I'm at the School's computer right now doing homework that needs ot be done otday and tomorrow... cause I can't at home. so yeah, that is how my week has been going, since I also have a splinter stuck in my hand. And I've been having some unique and disturbing dreams......

TIME STOP!

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 03:20:59 GMT

*taps the mic* is this thing on?
Man it has been a while since I have posted on here… So lets do a quick Summary! Halloween was alright, It wasn’t that exciting. I spent some time with the Gang, Mainly Chevy. Before Cameron came over the next weekend and broke up with me. Though it wasn’t a hard break up like a lot of the others, we are still friends. Even though it is hard for me to contact and chat with him without crying at least once, or at least feeling the need to cry.
Chevy is going after a guy, while Sanzo acquired one. Trick has lost his, and Kai still has hers… sadly. Me, I’m now tied in loneliness, while everyday life moves on.

*leans back* so yeah, life has been kinda neutral. I’ve read a few books (after buying them) and have been enjoying my Art for Elementary Teachers class. Art Seminar sucks and the teacher needs to be smited. Art Seminar has been so life changing though. I’m actually considering learning to be an Art Teacher… But I dunno, I don’t like younger kids, so I havn’t decided. I know I could teacher older art, like Middle or High School. But I still am considering.

Other than that the only thing that has been on my mind has been Yoshi’s Island 2 for the GBA, FFTA (Final Fantasy Tactics Advance) which I finally finished the last mission. AND TONS of EBERRON! I even invented my own Dragonmarkish symbol I want to make into a stamp and maybe a Tattoo when I’m older. I need to beat a few games so I can give them back to who they belong to, but some I won’t be able to do, until I get a PS2, oh wait! My Sister and her husband of giving me theres for an early b-day Present. I CAN’T WAIT! I get it tomorrow!!!

Last, why is it so many people can’t just get along. Or one thing changes and suddenly everyone is at each others throats? God, I’m so sick of PEOPLE!!! *growl*
… Random moment.. Sowwy, needed to vent a little.

Well, I’m off for a while, hopefully I will update more often! Like I say that every time!
Well, <3 you all!

OH! And only 1 month till my b-day. I TURN 22!!

-Travie-

P.S. HAPPY Thanksgiving

LMAO!

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 15:00:32 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In September I helped saintroisin see the light (8 points). Last Thursday wolf13 and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). In March I stole panda00's purse (-30 points). Last week I gave queen_banditcat a kidney (1000 points). Last Friday I caught a purse-snatcher who stole dark_jco's purse (30 points).

Overall, I've been nice (1019 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony!

Sincerely,
wierdly_serious

Chromatic

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 04:48:33 GMT

So hey everyone its been a few weeks hasn't it! Well, let me give you a recap. Chevy is now at Eastern and school has started for her. Her mother, Trick, and I helped her move in the first day and now she has started up!

Trick, well... Trick is... Trick? Don't know really what to say.

Sanzo/Becca is back in school as well and working as a Secratary again at KCC's Davidson building..

While Kai, is hunting for a job as she is Very Poor and getting poorer.

Trav doesn't have a "real" job either and is only Poor because he keeps spending money on my Awesome amazing Spec-Fucking-Tacular Boyfriend.. yeah.. I know.. probably a little over board with the compliments, but it makes him blush!
I have also started school and I think my Art Seminar teacher isn't going to live long.. He is trying to force me to do things I can't do quickly. *growls*
So yeah, while I have so much fun in my Art for Elementry Teacher class! We do such fun and easy assignments!

Okay... now onto boyfriend stuff, just so if you don't feel like reading it, I save it for last.
Well, last weekend Kai, Sanzo, and I went up to see him cause we needed to have a chat with him, we went out for Ice Cream and then trolled Wal-Mart (I bought Pocky). It was great to see, hear, and smell him again.. Yeah.. and the touching.. Yes.. the touching.. I mean *cough cough*
Then today.. well technically yesterday. We went up and went to the Allegan County fair (Sanzo, Kai, Tails, Tail's friend Robert and I) we had fun, well at least everyone says they did. I know I did cause I got to ride a whole bunch of rides with Tails (We kissed on the top of the Ferris Wheel!!!) and he even finally said the three sacred.. well not sacred but the three words I told him I would wait to hear, until he was ready to say them... "I love you!" He said it while I was crushing him on a ride going backwards.. The "Musik Express" or something like that.
IT WAS SO AWESOME!!! I then scratched him up a bit when we got back and he let me borrow his Super Smash Brother Melee Soundtrack! I will have to find a way to repay him!! That and our anniversary was yesterday... well the day we were at the fair.
So yeah... Can't wait to see him again! Though I need to save up money and pay of debts, my first goal now is to fix a fucking vehicle to drive!
Well, I will talk to you all later!
Love you All!
Spcailly you Tailz!
-Travie-

Water!

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 19:47:45 GMT

Well, here is an update of recent events.
Wednesday I worked and waited to get a hold of some friends to see what we were doing the next day. Thursday, I hung out with three of the four other pieces of the pentacle, then the fourth piece came later after his first day of work. We mostly just sat arounded a talked, I played games on my computer, then watched the begining of Brother's Grimm.. I havn't seen it all the way through, but it doesn't keep my attention that well.
I left during the middle of Brother's Grimm to go upstairs and use Kai's phone to call Tails! We were making plans for him to come down again. Well, over the course of less than 24 hours and much phone calls and trouble Tails and I finally got to see each other again. He is so an amazing guy.
Saturday I hung out with the Pentacle again, Tails along with me. We watched the 13 episodes of an anime.. I think called Elfen Led, but I'm not sure... After that Kai took Tails and I home. We ate ramen then fell asleep in each others arms as we were tired for some reason.
We then got up the next morning and spent a lot of time "together" though his mother called a quarter after 3 and wanted him home..
So, now I'm in an emotionless state agian, but I'm not letting that control me. I am going with Chevy and her Mother tomorrow to take her over to Ypsilanti. She is going back to school the end of the week and wanted to know if I wanted to help her move in. I'm going to miss her so!
Yep, and also it is Sanzo's birthday! Happy 21st Birthday!
Well, I g2g and get ready, did I mention today is my first day of School? Yep!
So, I want to see Tails again soon, but I don't know how that will go! But I will try before he goes back to school to see him!
Love you all!
-Travie-

Arbor

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 03:29:04 GMT

So yeah, time for an update!
Yesterday I went to Ann ARbor with the Pentacle. You know, Kai, Sanzo, Chevy, and Trick. It was loads of fun, we went to Wizzywigs (the Japanese Culture store), Borders books, Pinball Pete's (An Arcade), Middle-Earth (A Random shit store), and Encore (A record/CD store). I didn't buy much, except a slice or pizza from a Pizzaria, a stitch and cousin cellphone hang (that I put on my keyes) and a gift for my boyfriend. Sanzo bought me a Digimon Figure Surprise box where I got the cutiest little Turtle Digimon figure. She also bought me a Envy. I love my envy! But yeah, afterwards we hung out at Chevy's and watched the Grudge, which I am no longer afraid of except one minor part.
Today, I Worked at my granfathers, then came home and tried to figure out plans for tomorrow with the Pentacle (Minus Trick cause he got a job).. We were going ot go to South Haven, but with Michigan weather we don't know exactly. We will probably just stay at Chevy's and Exchange music and watch movies.
*intermission*
Now, you know I couldn't go thise journal without talking about my boyfriend.
I miss him a lot, and actually called him last night after getting home from Chevy's. It was so great to hear his voice, even though I couldn't phyically touch him. We are trying to make plans to see each other. I really hope they work out. I just wish I owned a phone with free long distance. Though it was great to blush happily again, just from hearing his compliments. So yeah, I really miss you Tails! and I can't wait to see you again *places hand on the monitor trying to break through to you*
Well, I'm off.
Love you all! (Specially you Tails).
Travie

Past Week with Tails

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 15:45:57 GMT

Okay, I just spent Tuesday-Friday with my boyfriend Cam! (who I will now refer to as Tails). It was so much fun. He is Spec-Fucking-Tacular! Most of the time was spent in my room, on my bed. I quickly learned how to turn him on, or at least make him all hot and bothered. Then, after a while we started getting a little deeper. (WE DID NOT FUCK!!! THERE WAS NO FUCKING!! AT ALL! THIS WEEK!!) Then I got to see some other things and man do I love his "Mammoth Fo"*mouth is covered by invisible hands to stop me from finishing that phrase*
Anywayz. But the one thing I must share, is that he is a realizor of Dreams and Fantasies!! OH GOD YES HE IS!!!!!!!! My bigget fantasy (for those of you who don't know) is to take a shower with a guy. Not to fuck or anyhting in the shower, just shower with a guy. Well! HE did it with me! AND OH GOD!! HE IS SO AWESOME AND FUN AND INCERDIABLE! *jumps up and down on a Tails High*.
Then I also bought him a Orange Naruto Jacket cause he likes Foxes, and Naruto is the Nine Tailed Fox. We then went out to eat at the oriental Restaurnt with Sanzo and Kai, as they took us to the Fair on Wednesday because they wanted to go and I got them in for free (As well as Tails). It was so much fun and I thank you Kai for Driving. (Oh, Kai also got her kitten).
Thursday night we spent at my sisters, where I once again got to shower with Tails, and it got even better then, but I won't share the details!
Wednesday night we also laid out under the stars holding each other. IT was amazing to be out there with him, controling my fear of what lies in the darkness and kissing him softly. Smelling him and the night. It was amazing.
I know this is going to sound girlie, but I really miss him.. When I got home yesterday evening around 3-4. I snuggled up with his shirt he left me because I wanted something of his with his scent on it to sleep and cuddle with, I felt like a piece of me was missing, sure my pentacle is here, but now I have a loving, caring, attractive, hot, beautiful, A-Fucking-Mazing boyfriend as well. And it just kinda makes me off to have him so far away and not be able to have a physical contact with him for a while.
I will survive though as I am going to get a job, pay off debts, get a car fixed or a car in general, then go see him again. If I cna't see him I will send him gifts up the wazoo. (Hence why a need a job to buy the gifts.) But yeah, that pretty much sumarized my week.
Well. I did play D&D with the Pentacle and Mike last night, then watched Silent Hill which really was creepy, disturbing, or anything bad.. IT was actually a lot of fun, but I agree with Trick, If we weren't making fun of it throughout the whole movie it probably would have been worse.
But yeah, so I will talk with you all later.
Love,
-Travie-
P.S. This is Dedicated to my boyfriend *cough, cough, clears throat and sings*
I still hear your voice,
When you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch,
in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness,
But I dont know why,
Without you it's hard to survive

(chorus)
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel the static,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,
Your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
We've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall..

(chorus)
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel the static,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow,
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly,
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

Countdown

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 21:07:49 GMT

Well, guess what! Cam is coming down Tuesday and staying till Friday! I can't wait. I want to see and hold him so bad! We are planning on going ot the Fair Wednesday, but mainly we just want to spend time together! I love him so much! I've dreamed about him twice, both exccellent things and I just feel aglow everytime I think about his whimper he makes when I bought him the bag and shirt! But yeah, so I only have three days to wait till I see him! I don't know how long I can hold out!
Also, the end of Doom Week is here, Arrmaggedon is upon us. For those who don't understand, the past week is "doom week" the week right before the Calhoun County Fair. Fair week is Armmagedon cause it is just a pain! But this years Armaggedon will be Amazing cause my Sweet, adorable, attractive, loving fox will be with me through most of it!
I love you Cam!
-Travie-

I'm not alone!

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 21:20:28 GMT

Guess what? I FINALLY HAVE A MATE!!! I would have posted this sooner, but I got home at little after 2 in the morning and was exhausted. I guess my boyfriend kinda wore me out from our day together! *wink* Yep, Val brought Cam (My Boyfriend) to K-Zoo, we spent about 4 hours in the mall together, we got to sit next to each other in the car, and just clung to each other. It is the most public display of affection I have ever done. Ever! It was actually rather relaxing and GREAT! We finally had to part and I didn't want to. I just wanted to go someplace and hold him. and Hold him. AND HOLD HIM!! I even bought him a bag and shirt he had been wanting to get. He said he had to find a way to pay me back, what he does't know is that he kissed me twice (three times if you count when he kissed my cheek) and oh God that was great, even though they weren't deep and long, IT WAS INCREIDABLE!!! I was so happy he kissed me, I loved it!!!
All in all, Cam is Incrediable.. my friends asked on the way home, "What did you think of today?" the only thing I could thing of is "It was FUCKING AMAZING!!" I can't wait to see him again, and I plan on it rather soon, if everything works out!
All right, well that is my update!
OH! And once again THANK YOU Adrian, Val, Rebecca, and Chevy-Chan!
And last, I <3 you, my sweet fox!
-Travie-

Cam High!

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 22:38:56 GMT

Yep, I'm on a Cam high, spent from 5:30pm - 2:30am talking to him yesterday. 9 hours! (and till 4 am the night before.. I like his personality soooooooooo much!!! I really can't wait to meet him! I think we would get along really well!!!
One fear about meeting him keeps bugging me, but I keep waving it off, even though it returns a lot. I will meet him though, even if we don't date I still want to be his friend. I LIKE HIM SO MUCH! And he is hot, just so you know! Very Hot!
I havn't really done much else, I plan on cooking, but I have to call Kai first. So, I should go do that! Maybe I will! Okay, that is all thank you.
*bounces around and spins in chair* WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
Love,
-Travie-

Snap!

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:53:28 GMT

So, today was a rather excellent day. I got up and almost exploded my computer cause it wouldn't burn a CD. I then tried another CD and it worked fine, while Chevy waited for it to download cause she came and picked me up so I could hang with her.
Well, getting to her house we looked through some pictures I burned on the CD, then called Saiya. After calling her and deciding we were going to the mall we called up Sanzo and Kai. They decided to meet us at the mall. Well, Saiya picked Chevy and I up and we went to the mall, where we met up with Sanzo and Kai, deciding to have a Girl's day out.
So we trolled the mall (me with only 3 dollars which I didn't spend). Sanzo and Kai bought stuff at Hot Topic (who didn't see that one coming), before reaching Gamestop where sanzo bought more. We then sat out in front of Recording studio place in the comfy chairs and jsut had weird/random/unique chats.
Well after the like half hour to an hour chat we got up and went back to Barnes and Nobles, where once agian, everyone but me bought something.
After the mall we all went back to Chevy's, Saiya left after about an hour, then we all went downstairs (including Chevy's brother) and watched movies. The first was one called NAked Weapon, very unique, didn't do much for me, but was very action packed (In more ways than one). The second was like Oka-Ban. Or something. Very nice and action packed later in the movie as well. It was a lot of fun making viewer commentary with my friends though!
Adrian then brought me home, and I got on here were I recieved a message from Cam. Speaking of Cam! *look below*
THOUGH! As a note, Kai recieved a call from her friend Val while walking around the mall. Well, she asks me when I am free through the week so that I could possibly meet Cam, this really nice fox that I get this warm and fuzzy feeling (thats a good thing) when I here about him or recieve a message from him. I really want to meet him! He seems real nice and "foxy"!

Love,
-Travie-

Ren and Courage

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 03:46:28 GMT

So, I went the Ren faire again. This time with a girl named Rhonda. She is a lot of fun to hang around with. We saw the Ric Roc show, Knotty Knickers, Pirate Shantyman and the Bonnie Lass, Dead Bob, and the World Champion Joust. There is another funny part, but I'm not sure if she would pleased if I mentioned that.
Afterwards we went to her house so she could let me borrow Star Warz Episode III, and the original Trilogy, cause I havn't seen that in forever. We also checked on Ken, her Boyfriend and he decided to come along when they took me home, he is really nice too! I can't wait to spend more time with them!
OH! And Rhonda wants to meet my friends! I have told her some stuff about you and I can't wait for Becca and Rhonda to meet. Both X-men/Faerie freaks. Though Adrian and Rhonda meeting would be cool, Corset Lovers.

Now, on to part too. I realized. I don't really have a lot of confidence in myself. Like we were sitting during a few of the shows. and I think "I want to yell something out." But I can never gather the courage to do it.
That is also how I am with getting a job. I don't really have experince in anything, cept baking, but I havn't actually taken classes in it, I only have home experince. I can sew a little, but not quickly, I am still in training. I know a lot about monsters and "supernatual" shit. Oh yes, that is useful. Then there is the base of painting ceramics. I only have the patience to do that for so long. I have a little photo skill, but I don't have the domiance to tell people how to pose.
That is pretty much all I can do, and I don't like math so register work isn't realy a good thing, and I could prolly be a stocker, but those jobs fill up quickly with todays generation. I just feel kinda weak that I can't find a job in what little experince I have.

Okay, I'm sick of complaining about how weak I am. So yeah. That is all going on, though Chevy is Travnapping me tomorrow. So yeah, that is my plans.

Love,
-Travie-

P.S. I still want to blow someguy!

Please Read.

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 13:36:48 GMT

As Previously stated in my last journal, I have been reading a new book series called the Gay Youth Chronicles. Well, the three that I have read so far, the boys have had a hard life when they came out, but they also felt more free and like themselves. I always keep saying that I just myself when I do the weird and unique things I do, but obviously, if I havn’t come out to my family and constantly have to bend what they say to make it so the girls who are my friends aren’t my girlfriends makes it so I am still living a lie and not being true to myself.
So I’ve been thinking about coming out, as my close friends know; I think about it a lot, I just don’t know how my family would react. I really wish tat I could be more free and not have to hide, and I think my mother might be okay with it, but I’m not sure about my father or sister. I have heard them insult gays and such before, but I am not sure if they do it half jokingly or if they are really serious.
So, my major focus is, I want help from the homosexuals who are my friends, but I know I don’t talk with a lot to please try and help me out. If you have come out how did you do it, or what is some advice you could possibly give me? To my friends and heterosexual people, what advice do you have, do you think it is a smart idea. Please. I am really sick of not being my complete self, but at the same time I don’t want to lose a life in having my family reject me 100%.

<3 Travie <3

Dance Water, Dance!

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 02:19:46 GMT

Hey everyone, what is up!
So yeah, havn’t blogged/journaled in a while, so I decided it was a fine time.. So much going on!

First) I found a new book series to read. It is the Gay Youth Chronicles, about High School boys discovering their true selves as gay men. Most of the stories take place in a city called Verona, Indiana… I want to know if that is a real city. Though the second one I read started in Kentucky and ended in Verona.

Second) I went to Ren Faire today with Sanzo and Kai. It was loads of fun!
The main story of the adventure is: We went to the Pirate Shant…I can never remember his name, and Bonnie Lass Show.. Well during the show, they were teaching us the Pirate Salute. I just so happen to be sitting in the last seat that ending up being at the end of the isle (actually being in the isle) and so I divided the crowd. Well they asked my name, and I gave it. Then they said they were going to call me Jack! So I am Jack as a pirate…. Well. They then said that everyone to one side of me would Salute for Pirate, while the other side of me would Salute for the Lass… They then said that I could choose a side, I could swing either way. Well, the Lass started laughing and was like “Haha.. Jack swings both ways!” I everyone erupted into laughter as I was a red as a cherry. Well, I didn’t think I could get any redder until, the Pirate then said “Yeah girls, you should have known that after the second time he took you to see Brokeback Mountain.” Well, the funny as hell part is I was with Sanzo and Kai, the TWO females who I took to See Brokeback!!! So they then see the Beer song. After that they tell the audience that after the show we could all go over to the Beer Tent and I would buy everyone a round of Beer. Well Joking I asked Sanzo if I could borrow some money. They then make more comments and make me really red again. They then sing a bit more and finally end the show. I walked up and gave them two dollars while Sanzo and Kai bought a CD. The Lass was who I gave the money two. She was really nice and thanked me for letting her pick on me. I didn’t mind. I’m trying to learn humility a bit better. Sanzo and Kai then came over and thanked them for letting her pick on me as well. It was great.

Third) Well, I plan on working on a few new ideas.. As I final realized I had a third.. Or is it fourth calling in life. Yep, to bad when I got home I couldn’t play off of it as I had to go and help an Uber-Hot guy try to get a vehicle out of my back yard… To bad he isn’t gay. *sigh*

Fourth) I have also realized that I am becoming a lot more mature and responable, even though I don’t have a job, I still feel more grown up than a lot of my friends right now. I have grown a lot, my tastes and ideals have changed slightly. I am actually beginning to realize I’m really happy where I am at, and if I can make things become better, I will be just as happy, if not happier… And I can’t believe I am about to say this, but even without a boyfriend (Even though I want one as much as always!)

Well, I love you all, and will reply when something big comes up.
<3<3<3
-Travie-

Another day.

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 21:01:58 GMT

So last night and this morning I was at the Marshall fair grounds helping me sibling and mother with the relay for life... I walked 22 miles in total over a 24 hour period.. doing the math of distance that was 7.92 miles. I know that isn't a lot, but I have three blisters on my feet and am exhausted as hell, especially since I slept in a car...

Some major changes are happening to my emotions.. I think I know how to solve it, but I just don't have the..... uh.... hmm.. Okay, there is no way to put it without making it sound rude or objectful. But I think my only other solution is to hang around people (friends) but I don't know if that will help... because we usually go out places and that might not be the best place for me... God damn, why do I feel like those god damn vampires from Belle Morte's line..

Speaking of Belle Morte! I finished reading Danse Macabre, but until Chevy-Chan reads it I won't post anymore... EXCEPT I <3 Nathaniel and Jason even more, and FINALLY there is a Travis!

Okay, well I'm out, and I hope to get some work done soon!! OH OH And tomorrow I am going to Silverleaf with my sister, I even have a costume! YEAH!

Love,
-Travie-

Squeaky!

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 19:12:34 GMT

So yeah, I'm getting ready to go see PotC:DMC with Josh, I think Chevy is a little miffed at me that I am going with him, but he gave me some speech about me being his only friend left and some other bitch taking his friends away, so I'll give him the benefit of the doubt.
Also, I finished reading another Eberron Novel that I've had for about a month. Thieves of Blood... It was really good, about a Priest who flings daggers, a half-orc fighter guy, a really nice girl who could kill with a pin, an elf theif-acrobat that works for the shadow network, an ex-pirate artificer, and a MAJOR emotionally challanged halfling.... but what I really wanted to tell you about was my favorite line, at the end (and I mean end) of chapter 15 (out of 22 Chapters)
Myka (the elf) is tired and is going to sleep, and she tells Ghaji, the half-orc that there is a squeaking board or something in the cabin and it keeps her from meditating... Well, Ghaji waits for a moment before Diran (the Priest) says "You'd better go, my friend. It's impolite to keep a lady waiting when she has a squeak that needs tending."
I could not stop laughing, espeically with the few other lines that came before and after it!
Anywayz....
yeah. There was also a family reunion today.. I didn't go.. never want to... but yeah. I better finish getting ready to go, after the movie I will probably be playing Magic, so I need to gather up my cards and get ready.
I <3 you all!
-Travie-

P.S. I think I am over my emotional fit.. though Kate...... I still no longer like you.

Love can be slayin!

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 05:32:15 GMT

Isn't this Irony.... I'm the one who is obessed with love... Kinda like the guy in Moulin Rouge, "Love is like Oxygen!" You know, all that shit.. though not completely 100% to it, but close enough.. but I am the one who is betrayed by it the most... I was sitting here looking at someone's profile... and I see a picture... I look at it.... and then... I start to cry... because me.. being gay, has done the stupid thing of falling in love with a straight guy.. and I mean truly falling in love (though a lot of my friends can't stand him) and I cry because he is dating a girl now... How weak is that.... I really wish I wasn't this love sick dog........ Wait.. did I just call myself a dog... OH GAWD!! I am really in a mood... Fuck... I should just go huddle in a corner and pass out.... I dunno... I just wish that I wasn't so stuck on love.. and telling others to follow their love interest when I can't even do.. Mainly cause most of the guys I like are either straight, or I think are straight (Cause I won't even ask them, even though I tell people to just be honest to people..) I am such a fucking Hypocrit!!!!
I'm just gonna stop now....
Love... God.. I even begin to end this with the word love.....
Travie!